Frustration

I hate what I feel now...






PMR is near and I haven't study ANYTHING yet>.<






Lately,I just don't feel like study...







Wasting my time on watching dramas,playing computer,playing piano,went cycling,sleep whole day...I just don't like it...








Maybe I'm just scared because exam is here,near...






I just don't wanna face it...






Opening my book and read nothing is what I'm doing lately...







Now,still having NEW idols put there ...






Maybe I shouldn't know them...







I'm just someone in Jfamily ,right?







Lately,I think I accepted some korean's idols...






This makes me more confused...WHY?







Especially at this IMPORTANT time...WHY?






This makes me wanna know more about them...







Which means,wasting time...







Here's an equation:
IDOLS=MONEY & TIME
we need time to know them and wasting money for magazines ,goods ,singles ,albums and whatsoever...






Know that I shouldn't waste my time like this,but,no way,this is my leisure!






BUT!!!






Study is also important!






Will try to study something...






After I finish two dramas,which I should watch today...







For me,I won't stop watching dramas even it is examination...






Finish drama,then study ...







DRAMA > STUDY






just now playing piano downstairs...






I put the bag next to the piano ,on the floor...







Mum said that I should put it in the storeroom...






For no reason,I get angry...






I don't like being said like that...







So I stop playing piano,keep my books,and here I am...






In my room angry to myself but not mum...






Now,I am not sure what I am thinking and what I want...






Someone please tell me...






I am just tired...







See you next time=)